Let's start with my running program. I feel like I'm going backwards. I know listening to me go on and on about this probably sounds like a manic-depressive, but it's true. After my awesome run on Monday, I was all pumped up for Wednesday.....it was horrible. I had to bring Wyatt and it was just not good with having to push the stroller and worry about his happiness. I did like 2k, and I didn't even do it quickly, it was just horrible. I thought I would just write it off as a bad day and make up for it on Saturday and Sunday. I spent the whole day in the car on Friday (literally, I'm not exagerating) so I was actually pumped to move my body on Saturday morning. Another horrible run. I was attacked by deer flies and I couldn't keep up my pace. It just really discouraged me. I complained to my sister about it and she said "Well, you did decide to train for a 10k in the middle of summer." Maybe I was being naive....or maybe I'm just giving myself an excuse to fail now. Anyway, I wasn't getting the cardio burn I needed so I decided to make some changes (more on that later).
Secondly, the weight loss. Today marks the beginning of week 5. At the end of week 3 I had lost seven lbs. I have gained back three of those pounds. Normally this would cue my depressed binging and giving up, however, I realize that it may have to do with the lunar calendar and water retention (ya feel me ladies???). This does usually happen to me, where I gain and lose up to 5 pounds. So I'm not letting it depress me yet. If I still haven't lost it by the end of next week, then I will let it depress me (just kidding....I think). Also, I decided that after a month I would do my measurements. I have lost 1/2 an inch off my bust (let's face it, that's not a bad thing), 1/2 an inch off my hips (that is kind of a bad thing), and nothing off my waist (that's a very bad thing). The problem is, that my tummy is where I gain all my weight. Even when I was sick and underweight, my hips were smaller than my waist. *sigh* Obviously that will never change, but I'd like to get it to smaller proportions. I'll update my measurements in another 4 weeks.
Changes to my plan... Well, instead of running today, I decided to go downstairs to the elliptical. I just couldn't face the deer flies and the heat (it's going up to 32C today....come on!), and of course the thought of another failure was just not something I could handle. I feel like since weight loss is a high priority for me right now, that I need to get some of this weight off before I start beating myself up for not being a runner. On the elliptical, my heart rate stays up the whole time and I can go for a lot longer because my legs aren't giving out and there's no pressure on my knees. I just think that until I'm in better shape, the elliptical will serve me better because I can keep my heart rate up for longer. I'm still doing strength training too, but I need to figure out some sort of shedule. I want a toned body, not just a thin body. The only problem with this is that I feel like I'm giving up on doing a 10k in September. I still really want to do it, but now I'm afraid I won't have time to train for it. I'm going to be very disappointed in myself if I don't do it. Even if I say, hey, maybe I'll do the 5k instead and just try to take some minutes off my time. I don't know. I'm very confused about this. Maybe I should just buy a treadmill. If anyone has any advice, let me know.
I guess I'll close by saying that I'm really discourged about the running thing, but I'm not letting this week's weight gain upset me (yet). The old me would have used the running failure to quit the whole program, but I went long and hard on the elliptical instead. So, I guess it's positive in some ways because I'm not giving up.
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| I didn't have any motivational photos to share relating to this week so I thought I'd share a family photo from the 5k/10k we did last Septmeber when Wyatt was 4 months old! |
Just remember that weight loss is not a steady loss, it goes up and down, but as long as it goes down more than it goes up, you are golden :)
ReplyDeleteI personally go up and down about 4 pounds depending on the time of day I weigh myself... keep the good work!
Have you considered trying one of those Couch to 5K cellphone apps? I know you're working towards a 10k, but perhaps doing a shorter workout (1/2 hour) in intervals would feel more doable? Then, it's not so much the distance as getting through the short little intervals that they break it into.
ReplyDeleteOn another note, I saw a commercial for this device by OFF that you were on your belt that mosquitos don't like - perhaps that would work for deer ticks, too?
I just came across your blog on your FB link...and now an hour later at work I have gotten nothing done but I am up to date on your journey to get skinny! I think it's awesome, honest and all too familair. I started my skinny goal last year in March and I did the ol' shock the system approach, I hit bootcamp! 3 days a week and it was intense. Results were slow and my nutrtion was shitty, but I kept at it and started seeing results. Then one day in May my co-worker said he was running the Army Run, so I signed up for the 1/2...I hate running, I suck at running and frankly I am not sure if there is anyone out there that looks more ridiculous than I do when I run...but I started and I was right it sucked and painful and really not something I wanted to do but like you I put it out there on FB and told anyone who would listen I was doing it...and I did...most amazing feeling in the whole world and to see my girls at the finish line with their signs " Go Mommy" I was hooked. I have completed two 1/2's, a 10k a 5k and a Spartan Race since then. I have cut back my runs but continue Bootcamp...long story short I live just around the corner and if you want I have two other ladies in the neighbourhood who talked about starting a bit of a G.G runnig group...For me I always did my long runs with someone else because it meant I had a time and date picked and if I didn't go I let someone else down and I hate that. Even if we did it once a week to push oursleves. Let me know what you think!
ReplyDeleteMy stupendously gorgeous cousin...... Nooooo! Why must you even worry about 'weight'? It's a sickness of our culture to always think of our bodies in these terms!
ReplyDeleteYou are ALWAYS SO BEAUTIFUL!
Don't torture yourself! Running is hell.
If you want to be healthier/feel more fit, have you tried long-distance swimming? It tones fast, it is so much more fun, it keeps the horseflies away, and it is way less harsh on your body.
please, please, please, please, please never forget how beautiful you are
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